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Jerry and I were married on June 26, 2010. Jerry had children from his first marriage, but we knew that we wanted to expand our family, and we started that process within months of our wedding. The excitement and possibility of babies was quickly overshadowed by infertility. The process was frustrating and heartbreaking, but after many unsuccessful attempts with IUI, we turned to IVF.  

We were thrilled to learn that our first IVF attempt was a successful one...with twins no less! I know both of us had secretly hoped for twins, but it took a while to sink in that we would have TWO babies. We immediately began preparing for the way our lives would change in the next few months.  

In spite of a very scary start, our babies grew perfectly as scheduled. We heard every heartbeat as we should, and saw them wiggle on each ultrasound. Every time, it became more "real" to us that we were finally having the babies we longed for. However, at my 20 week ultrasound our excitement over gender reveals, etc turned to heartbreak.  We were excited to find out that our Baby B was a boy, Jaxson "Jax" Childrey after my precious Pappaw.  Baby A didn't move much at all. What we initially perceived as an uncooperative baby turned into something more. The doctor noticed spinal abnormalities and was concerned with the lack of movement, so he sent us for a teleconference level 2 ultrasound the next week.

We just knew that what we would see would be a perfectly healthy baby, but it wasn't. They told us that our baby was missing limbs and vital organs, there were defects in the spine and umbilical cord, and there were critically low levels of fluid in the sac around the baby. Whereas Jax was healthy, Baby A was not, and would likely be stillborn. 

I cannot tell you what happened in the next few minutes. I know that I sobbed uncontrollably, but I can't remember how I made it to the car without passing out. We began to notify our families and friends, and then we began to pray. When he could finally speak, the first thing Jerry said to me was "This isn't over yet."  I couldn't see it then, but I knew that God would have to provide us with a supernatural peace and faith beyond our imaginations to get through this. He has done just that. We, along with our family, friends, and church family, began to pray for a miracle.  We've already seen the beginning of our miracles. At our appointment with the specialist the following Monday, things were different. Where our baby had no limbs, it did at this appointment. The doctors had told us before that there were definitely missing organs, but the specialist couldn't tell us this for sure. We did know that the levels of fluid was still critically low, and in the words of our doctor, this was where we needed to focus our prayers.

This road is not easy, but we know we haven't reached the end yet. People all over the world are praying for our babies. We continue to be encouraged and strengthened in our belief that we are going to bring two babies home. 

You can help by adding us to your prayer list. Share our need with as many people as you can. We know beyond any doubt that prayer works, and we know that God just isn't finished with this baby yet! 

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